I have had this post in my drafts for about 6 weeks now. I’m not sure if it was a lack of sleep, something I ate, conversations that I had with others, or if I am just loosing my ever lovin’ mind. But something sparked, clicked, or possibly exploded and it came out as word vomit. I’m sorry. I know that isn’t the best or most visually pleasing expression to use, but it’s the only one that makes sense. After a period of sitting on this post I finally decided to click the publish button.
I feel I should put out a disclaimer to warn you that I am speaking from MY heart. What I have to say is completely directed towards myself. My goal is not to offend anyone, just to share how I am feeling.
I recently came to the realization that I will never be a Ree, or a Sherry, or a (insert the name of any famous blogger here). Not that I ever expected to and not that it was ever a goal. But, my attitude and the way I treat this little space of mine would suggest otherwise.
I guess what I am really trying to say is I came to the realization that I was building an idol. I prioritized it, sacrificed for it, protected it, and let it dominate my thoughts. From letting the blog control my to-do list, family activities, and schedule. To obsessing about the “perfect” graphics and placing entirely too much stock into making pinnable posts, page views, social shares, and how many people were following me on Instagram.
What the heck?!
I have cared way too much about stupid things that have absolutely no eternal value.
I mean seriously, think about it. 20 years from now there is absolutely no stinking way I am going to be saying “If only I had gotten a few more followers.” or “I wish I had written more blog posts on how to make potholders”… or whatever. I feel pretty certain that the answer to that is going to be a loud no.
So here I am questioning the madness and it looks a whole lot like this … … …
I know that the friendships I have made through blogging are diamonds in my life. Some of the very best friends that I have, I have never even met.
I also know that blogging has been a huge financial blessing to my family as well. As annoying as sponsored posts can be, they have paid for things and provided for us. As a one income family extra money is always a blessing. It has been SO hard to not want more & more of that.
But at what cost?
Blogging as a “career” in 2017 is a dog eat dog world. Nearly everyone has a blog and a large chunk of those are desperately trying to monetize them. Setting yourself apart and competing with the insanity is nothing short of absolute chaos! You can invest HOURS into looking for sponsored opportunities and never see a dime. I can’t live like that anymore.
I recently made the decision to scale back my blogging from 5 days a week to 4 and eventually over the summer I plan to scale back again to 3. I will still share some sponsored material but I can guarantee that it will be less frequent than it has been over the past year. I will no longer go desperately seeking it out. If it finds me and my inbox and fits into my life, great.
I have also decided that I will no longer obsess over my IG feed and how many followers I have. My social media followers and the affirmation they give me doesn’t determine my worth. Say that right now out loud and REALLY grasp that. Say it 20 times if you need to, just let it really soak in.
My hope and prayer is that my goals will change as I prioritize the things in life that matter most. God, family, friends.
So why am I putting this out there.
#1 I know I am not alone
#2 I know that I may be tempted to lose sight and return to the craziness and I want accountability.
I am so excited to continue on with blogging and sharing our life with you. But I am even more excited to do that more genuinely than I ever have before.
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